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no one is ever gonna see this so its perfect :)
perfect for me to vent my heart out.
fighting is very common in my hse now. like seriously.
i am not exactly miss nice or whatever and my sis has been pretty rude
and cant help it so i just snap. and behave like a total bitch. hate myself
my dad gets so dejected but i still cannot stop myself.
if my sis was nicer to me this post wld be so redundant.
she can be so selfish and im seflish right back. i wish i could actually share all this with someone.
like REALLY share. but no one is EVER gonna read this thank god.
actually i wish someone WOULD read this and tell me they care. about me.
and they love me. and that they do not wish to see me sad. and tell me they are here for me. and not judge me based on my behavior with my family. i miss my mum so much it hurts. i think abt her EVERYDAY and sometimes the tears just flow. sometimes i hate coming home so much. i hated coming home to an empty hse but now? i LOVE IT. i even cut myself. when my sis threw something at me and it broke and for some reason i just picked it up and well cut myself. maybe i was hoping that someone wld realise and finally I CAN CONFIDE in someone. but no one realsied. no one even realised i was upset. ran tao did :) so someone does care even in the most subtle ways. i suppose iwant someone to realsie and scream at me and worry abt me. but who? no one...my mum would have seen them. she would have known. god i miss her so much :(
and it hurts. from the inside out. i want her back. i want her now. i want her to hug me and kiss me and tell me everything will be fine. i want the feel of her cool handss on my cheek. i want too hear her soothing voice. i want to cuddle up beside her and sleep peacefully. i want to eat food cooked by her. i want her.

My tuition teacher suggested that I should blog daily to improve my English.

So here I am (: Trying to revive this blog which has been more dead than ever.

Not to mention my short stint with the tumblr account. It is so confusing it is

pratically killing me. Just like my dad and sister's quarrels. I hate to be in the middle

of it. Ever since the maid was fired its worse. Even I am fighting with my sister more

and I hate it. I have become more rude, lazy and selfish. I am not doing so well in

school either. I really need to buck up or my world is just going to go spiraling down.

Okay this was just so 'emo' so lets move on to more cheerful stuff.

I went shopping just for clothes yesterday. We went ION and 313@Somerset and it

was ah-mazing. Just amazing. I bought this simple,sleek,sophisticared and slightly

sexy black dress form zara. My friends loved it on me more than I did. I got 15/30 for

amath CT3. So i was pretty depressed. I mean just pass on the dot? its like an insult. I

dont know why but...yeah. The shoping trip cheered me up instantly. By the

way,coffee bean has wicked choc chip muffins and tiramisu. Oh and you must know

that I am very random. Like seriously.

That reminds me I love ghost whispere abd pretty little liars. My two favourite tv

shows :)

Gotta go now. Bio project and all :)

Cheerio!

HEY ALL!
My homework is calling out to me like a siren song.
But I surprisingly havent succumbed to its not-so-sweet seduction.
I am dead. Deader then the dead sea if thats possible.
Gah.
And Sunday is already here.
God help me.
I am such a lazy goon.
I deserve to rot in the pits of hell or smthng.
I mean no one can be a worse procrastinator then me :(((
ahhh well...might as well enjoy the hols while i can huh?
once school starts, i will be roped into all the rush and once again
be on schedule so I shld hopefully be back on track and complete hw faithfully (:
so lets just wait and see how true the above will be :D
Plus I am going for a dinner party! GOD!
I AM DEAD!
But I will just take it easy (:
I am always able to complete my hw in time anyway (:
so i shld just relax (:
english(pirate) is the awesomest thing ever on facebook (:
im a saucy wench according to them :DD
shiver me timbers!
Its time i abandon the ship (:
toodles!

I'm still slacking :((((
watching tv again...
The Indian Premier League to be exact:D
nvm i will do what I am best at
rushing hw...LOL
man...I already miss the facilitators
and my buds from the L.I.N.E camp!
I have to say JJC is really awesome:)))
they really made an impact and changed my perspective:)))
impact is right. All the cheers we had to do?
That's right-all in my head. I occasionally dream abt them too;D
Day 2 was aaa-maaa-zzzzi-iiiinngggg from
when I woke up to when I slept:DD

weird but I'm looking fwd to school.
Even though my hw is incomplete:p
it's ok:))))
almost all of it isn't due on mon so why worry?
Toodles:)))

I AM A MURDER
its offical.
How many blogs have I killed?
Argghh...probably 4 excluding this one which I just happen to be reviving!
Maybe I am not so bad afterall :P
Well like many other times, I will try to keep this as alive as possible
but do not blame me if it fails miserably.
(actually i am to be blamed but nvm)
Some march hols i had.
Went to L.I.N.E Camp at JJC.
It was really cool! One of a kind experience.
Amazing people,fun games,cool school what's there to not like?
It was a pleasant way to start the hols. Way pleasant.
Sure I lost precious hours of sleep but it sure beats sitting aroound doing hw.
Now that is what I call BO-RING.
Did I mention hw?
Great as usual I have not completed it.
Sigh...what else is new?
Had to go to school in the morn to do hindi test which prolly bombed BIG time.
Then i went to IMM to hve lunch at subway with pari and two of her classmates who are damn nice!
We trudged to jurong library to do hw but ended up reading instead.
Boy reading sure beats hw anytime!
We finally convinced ourselves to do hw and guess what?
I was only able to complete the LTC reflection thing and here I am now.
Of course I had tons of fun with Pari (I always do)
And do not regret all the reading I did one bit BUT
i still wished I made more progress with my hw!
Bah!
i am going now.
nah not to do hw.
READ!!!!
Got the bk I was dying to read- Pretty Little Liars (Wicked)
its one of the best series alive on earth i tell you!
CHEERIO :D

Wow. the 1st week of hols and I am already bored! wat you say? HAHAAHAHA. well hopefully next week will be better vos' i do have a few actitvities lined up. And that includes meeting for PEPS Drama Camp and Earth Week with my LTC grp-Inferno! Love them already and my SFs too! Hahaaha! Cant wait to see my PEPS mates though (: Ahh spent half my day on facebk today and the other half o youtube. In beween I spared time to eat and read too thank gooness. Or else wld hve gone crazy. Ok im bored. But my dad is cuming back from KL. Even though it is only miles awau from SG my dad might be bringing back goodies for me! Esp those that I asked for and cant wait! I love recieving gifts as much as giving them! And cant wait to see the expressions of my frens when they see what I got for them. Bet they wld totally adore it! Hahahah...okay I am tired and lazy so I am going of to TRY and do smthng productive. Cheerio!

Its like midnight.
and i officially cant sleep.
Woke up at like 10.30am today and slept for the WHOLE afternoon.
Finally got back ALL my lost sleep (:
Just changd my blogskin as you can see.
i am to lazy to type anymore.
going to listen to music for a while and then sleep.
i will give a proper update when i really have NOTHING to do.
PEPS PEEPS!!
We NEED to have a reunion asap.
hahaha
Good night and sweet dreams!

Uma
MGSian.tomaster.togrow.toserve.Ex-PEPSian.eachhisbest. MGS Drama Society. PEPS Drama Club Alumni. I eat peanut butter straightfrom the jar, prefer bear hugs to air kisses, sing along to cheesy songs, believe in love and second chances. I am very loud and crazy sometimes but just love to have fun. i may seem like a total rebel but I am actually a geek and LOVE reading books. Call it an obbsession or whatever. Theatre is my passion (: I heart my family and friends like crazy!